To sleep, perchance to dream

Since I received my cochlear implants, I've had no residual natural hearing.  I'm completely deaf, except that with my implants I hear better than I have in years.

But I don't sleep with them, which is fine - I'm not usually talking to anyone while I'm asleep anyway (though my husband informs me that I was talking in my sleep the other night - first time that's happened, that I'm aware of).

But in my dreams, I can hear.  I don't know if my brain thinks I can still hear unassisted or what, but it's kind of cool, it's the only time I can be like everyone else.  The fact that it's never when I'm conscious is unfortunate, but there we are.  I use my CIs and it's fine.

But last night I had a dream in which, for the first time, I had cochlear implants.  In the dream, I didn't have my processors, though, and I could still hear, so if this is my brain adjusting to the reality of what happened eight years ago, it's doing it in an add and disjointed way.

But I guess I have that to look forward to - how, or even if, my hearing will change in my dreams.  Brain function - in this sense, that awareness that underpins what we dream about - is something I don't know much about, but it will be interesting to see how this unfolds. 

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